Tuesday, 30 June 2009

Tears Flows

I closed my eyes but I just couldn’t sleep and with my brother and his friends making a racket in his room next door doesn’t help me either way.

I wish now that school opens so I could kick him out to boarding school!

I tried to calm myself to sleep by listening to slow music but I end up more open wide and it got me thinking. All of a sudden I started crying silently. This is crazy! I scolded myself being like this. There must be something wrong with me. Maybe I’m just tired from the heavy workload I had today. But I can’t make that as an excuse. Kerja adalah tanggungjawab kita, as much stress it’s given you to just need to suck it up and do it. But masih normal lagi kalau kita nak merungut and mengeluh.

I woke up late today but I expected that much from last night I was still up at 3am.

It’s raining again today but it’s ok cause today I had my ‘popia pisang’ that I’ve been craving! Lol! It’s sweet and delicious covered with honey! Yum yum!!

I’m half way done ngan kerja but I have to push it through so everything will run smoothly.

I badly need a break!!! I need to get away from work, July comes too slow….

I don’t care if I don’t go overseas; just as long as I’m in resting mood.

I need some hibernating time!! Lol!!

Sunday, 28 June 2009

Happy Thoughts

I'm thinking of happy thoughts to get me through it all. taking deep breaths every now and then and get back to my heavy workload. and yet, my mind is clouded as the weather today; it's going to rain yet again. But today, I welcomed it to shy away this sad, day dreaming face.

Where's the slap patrol where you need then you get you through the day without wasting time.

Most of my work are done... But I'm still not satisfy enough with the progress. I need to re-do things here and there.

Thursday, 25 June 2009


I'm in a "deep sink" right now thinking about what i should do with my outstanding overdues. The cursed four letter word just came out of my mouth; there's no one to blame but myself but still i just feel like cursing. Just my way of telling myself that i'll get through this: i don't know how but i will.

It's a time like this that i'm wishing to have someone to lean on. Not about money but will be a good bonus if the help is given. I'm talking more on having someone to talk to besides talking with air and wallpappered wall in my room. *sigh*

I have to do something about this. There's more to life than moping around and thinking of something you don't have and just wishing. (I can't help it though: I'm only human!)